Thursday, November 22, 2007
Punks are crazy, so are drunks.
Punks have weird hairdos, so do drunks
Punks have tattoos of their girlfriends, drunks have tattoos of their mums.
Hahah i was bored you see? well anyway. totally ponned open house today to sleep. kept checking on her blog but apparently shes out. talking to yu en just now and im quite sure he can make it. HAHAHAAH Rishon looks like a kid in that shirt la. i guess all of us still are. we dont know what we want sometimes and we do many things on impulse. no regrets about getting tog w her though. she just fails to see the me she knew last time. she keeps focusing on my negatives and her insecurities. that was the barrier. not because we were "strained". my hot headed-ness got ahead of me and obviously, like what yu en said, would happen if she was so close to guys. but the thing was that i trusted you and i just needed reassurance from you. i dont know why people keep talking about the past. it always seem like such an inviting subject. "who was your first girlfriend" and "which school were you from" always appear to be good ice-breakers. many a time, raking up the past is just for heart-breakers. "didnt you used to be with...?" "why did you all break up?!" stuff like that just irritates the breakup. your i love you's meant the world to me.and they still do. you told me that you loved me that night. finally(: i was over the moon. its so strange how a perfect couple would fall apart. i thought out of the three, we would last the longest. with yan tin and brandan having frequent quarrels and ayuni and akif having "games" i thought that our relationship was perfect. what was different was that we were the sweetest, yet when trials and tribulations called, you couldnt answer to them. yes i tried fighting and came up short cos you werent there fighting alongside. this breakup meant so much to me because i knew that we were meant to live for so much more and that i thought you had the energy to fight the pain. sadly, i guess, we both couldnt make it happen. just so you know i never meant the horrible words i said before and was only out of rage. you really are an angel. if settling the score with all your friends and make them like/accept me would fix the problem, by my Balls, i will do it. even if it means accepting the fact that your close to guys. even apologising and trying to get along with ignatius, i would do it. and i cant believe that im saying this. but if it would get us back to the loving kids we were. i would even talk to Thaqif and smoothen this hate we harbour for each other. im really spilling my pride over the floor. and if you were a guy,you would see that this is not desperation. its surrender. i can tell how much friends mean to a girl, cos us guys are close but we are not reliant on friends. apart from all the problems we've been through and all the promises we made. i can safely say, i love you hazel lee. and i dont care how many promises you broken. because this love we share* is still there. i can feel it. how could a guy not feel jealous when a girl is that close? my jealousy, i guess is a proof of how much you mean to me. to be honest, there was a time that i lost trust in you. but i began trusting you again with every i love you and "i want blake and elle to grow up in Australia" these were all the things i needed to hear for my heart to be at rest and so my soul could wander and dream when i slept. im not sure if you'd read this but i would scale the tallest tower to rescue you from your cinderallastory scene. these arent cheap. their from the heart. i doubt any amount of stirring speeches would bring you back hazel. so all im praying for is a miracle.
If i cant have you, i dont want shoes;
11:21 PM
Punks are crazy, so are drunks.
Punks have weird hairdos, so do drunks
Punks have tattoos of their girlfriends, drunks have tattoos of their mums.
Hahah i was bored you see? well anyway. totally ponned open house today to sleep. kept checking on her blog but apparently shes out. talking to yu en just now and im quite sure he can make it. HAHAHAAH Rishon looks like a kid in that shirt la. i guess all of us still are. we dont know what we want sometimes and we do many things on impulse. no regrets about getting tog w her though. she just fails to see the me she knew last time. she keeps focusing on my negatives and her insecurities. that was the barrier. not because we were "strained". my hot headed-ness got ahead of me and obviously, like what yu en said, would happen if she was so close to guys. but the thing was that i trusted you and i just needed reassurance from you. i dont know why people keep talking about the past. it always seem like such an inviting subject. "who was your first girlfriend" and "which school were you from" always appear to be good ice-breakers. many a time, raking up the past is just for heart-breakers. "didnt you used to be with...?" "why did you all break up?!" stuff like that just irritates the breakup. your i love you's meant the world to me.and they still do. you told me that you loved me that night. finally(: i was over the moon. its so strange how a perfect couple would fall apart. i thought out of the three, we would last the longest. with yan tin and brandan having frequent quarrels and ayuni and akif having "games" i thought that our relationship was perfect. what was different was that we were the sweetest, yet when trials and tribulations called, you couldnt answer to them. yes i tried fighting and came up short cos you werent there fighting alongside. this breakup meant so much to me because i knew that we were meant to live for so much more and that i thought you had the energy to fight the pain. sadly, i guess, we both couldnt make it happen. just so you know i never meant the horrible words i said before and was only out of rage. you really are an angel. if settling the score with all your friends and make them like/accept me would fix the problem, by my Balls, i will do it. even if it means accepting the fact that your close to guys. even apologising and trying to get along with ignatius, i would do it. and i cant believe that im saying this. but if it would get us back to the loving kids we were. i would even talk to Thaqif and smoothen this hate we harbour for each other. im really spilling my pride over the floor. and if you were a guy,you would see that this is not desperation. its surrender. i can tell how much friends mean to a girl, cos us guys are close but we are not reliant on friends. apart from all the problems we've been through and all the promises we made. i can safely say, i love you hazel lee. and i dont care how many promises you broken. because this love we share* is still there. i can feel it. how could a guy not feel jealous when a girl is that close? my jealousy, i guess is a proof of how much you mean to me. to be honest, there was a time that i lost trust in you. but i began trusting you again with every i love you and "i want blake and elle to grow up in Australia" these were all the things i needed to hear for my heart to be at rest and so my soul could wander and dream when i slept. im not sure if you'd read this but i would scale the tallest tower to rescue you from your cinderallastory scene. these arent cheap. their from the heart. i doubt any amount of stirring speeches would bring you back hazel. so all im praying for is a miracle.
If i cant have you, i dont want shoes;
11:21 PM