Wednesday, December 5, 2007
last night sucked man. i really have no idea whats going through my head now la. yesterday so many sappy broken hearted songs were playing on the radio and mtv. seriously its like cracking a bat between my eyes la. first was through the monsoon, then babylove, then heels over head, then tattoo by jordin sparks, wont go home without you. made me think back so much about hazel. haha:D she's in China now likely to be gaining weight instead of losing it. i know i dont love her anymore, and that when everything was wrong, thats why we moved on. really i wonder whats wrong with this world man. i can always sound full of knowledge but deep inside i aint everything i think i am. hahah i dont know girls as much as i thought i did. Rishon is so special to me. she isnt like all the girls i dated before, she is so mature and she told me something i always just pushed aside when others told me "let nature take its course, im not rushed for time :D " she really is the most specialiest girl i know(: HAHAH! everyone misses nick man. no pool-iers -.P BORING SIAL HOLIDAYS. REEEEESHHHHIIION. people are telling me to go for you, but its not them im listening to.its my heart, and its always the "i will always love you shit" or "baby, i love you cos your the one that makes me feel special, i will love you forever" but both you and i know that things werent meant to last now. haha after seeing all these failed relationships. i guess that im not even asking you to stead with me. because its the first time i ever heard such words from a 13 year old. hahah honestly, your hot(:and i dont want you to feel that im using you to replace my previous relationship, because crawling back into that pit is the last thing i wanna do. i know i cant force love/feelings, but you really opened up my eyes and made me see things from a different perspective. lets just let nature take its course and let the currents take us wherever it goes(: iloveva
If i cant have you, i dont want shoes;
10:35 PM
last night sucked man. i really have no idea whats going through my head now la. yesterday so many sappy broken hearted songs were playing on the radio and mtv. seriously its like cracking a bat between my eyes la. first was through the monsoon, then babylove, then heels over head, then tattoo by jordin sparks, wont go home without you. made me think back so much about hazel. haha:D she's in China now likely to be gaining weight instead of losing it. i know i dont love her anymore, and that when everything was wrong, thats why we moved on. really i wonder whats wrong with this world man. i can always sound full of knowledge but deep inside i aint everything i think i am. hahah i dont know girls as much as i thought i did. Rishon is so special to me. she isnt like all the girls i dated before, she is so mature and she told me something i always just pushed aside when others told me "let nature take its course, im not rushed for time :D " she really is the most specialiest girl i know(: HAHAH! everyone misses nick man. no pool-iers -.P BORING SIAL HOLIDAYS. REEEEESHHHHIIION. people are telling me to go for you, but its not them im listening to.its my heart, and its always the "i will always love you shit" or "baby, i love you cos your the one that makes me feel special, i will love you forever" but both you and i know that things werent meant to last now. haha after seeing all these failed relationships. i guess that im not even asking you to stead with me. because its the first time i ever heard such words from a 13 year old. hahah honestly, your hot(:and i dont want you to feel that im using you to replace my previous relationship, because crawling back into that pit is the last thing i wanna do. i know i cant force love/feelings, but you really opened up my eyes and made me see things from a different perspective. lets just let nature take its course and let the currents take us wherever it goes(: iloveva
If i cant have you, i dont want shoes;
10:35 PM